♥ Saturday, April 7, 2007
haix...blur me forget to publish myy post which makes me hav to type again...today was raining rather heavily which means that training ground iis gonna b wet...gotta b careful cos ii very accident-prone...aniwae,ii really wish that whateveer karen had said might not b true..or else another episode of zara incident might happen again...lols...ii think ii very mean...my trainer,iris,asked me to see a doctor regarding my back injury...ii told her ii will see frist cos ii really dont like to see doc cos partly iis iim afraid of bad news...scared that the doc will tel me that ii cant dance for a while..hais...iris told me that ii better dont b a second Shawn which iis my guy trainer...sians..now pondering whether shld ii go see a doc???pondering whether is my expectation for boyfriend iis too demanding or iim uz afraid another heartache or iim not ready to accept another person into my life...iim too used to myy current lifestyle.plus ii think that guys of our era are flirts or not faithful.not al but quite a number..ii guess iim really afraid of pl liking me cos ii dunno whether ii wil have the same feeling for them.plus ii might end up hurting them and lose them asmy friend..hais...that josiah stil contact me now...ii really hope that he already givenup on me...cos ii really really dont feel like toking o him or let alone sms him.think he really pissd me off to the extreme of what he had done.due to him,ii really afraid of people liking me..dont wish that they were another josiah... right now,iim juz patiently waiing for a guy that iis super understanding plus funny to walk into my path.what iis mine iis gonna b mine someday =)-iim waiting for you.when will you appear in front of me?-
Footprints,4/07/2007 11:50:00 PM