this post is all abt unspoken words, feelings and everything tt ii dint expected. for the first time iim gonna make my post damn emotional. hahahhaha.

i kn i dont like him as much as i like derrick.
on sun night, made a promise to myself to try to cut down clubbing so as to make him happy & in a way making this whole thing last.
jus when i decided to open my heart to him & totally forget derrick cos it came to a point tt iim reallie tired of waiting & hoping tt the both of us reallie stand a chance after all this while. im nt tt kind of person who will concede defeat so easily but when it comes to derrick. iim seriously lost. many times ii cried over him while drinking, everyone asked mi to gif up cos they said tt it's painful to see mi holding on to something tt might not even haf a outcome. many times i want to gif up, at the point of giving up, he will jus suddenly crawl his way back to my heart again. dont want to be dangle in the air anymore. dont want to be pining away for him & gif up other better choices.

jus when ii finaly made my choice on sun night, everything changes.
we broke off. due to differences.